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uncertainty and fear

Posted in Uncategorized, tagged , , , , , , , , , , on November 14, 2008 | 3 Comments »

So for the last month or so I have been making the decision to quit my FT job, get a PT job and stay home during the day with the baby and to study.This has been an excruciatingly difficult decision to make.
Today was the day to hand in my 6 week notice and I had [...]

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Posted in Uncategorized, tagged , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , on August 9, 2008 | Leave a Comment »

Dooce posted an inspiring story about her four year old today. She aimed it at new mothers, floored by post-natal depression and a non-stop screaming baby who just can’t handle it any more- she gave them some hope. That one day their baby would be an intelligent, thoughtful human being who they would have riveting [...]

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crumbling…

Posted in Uncategorized, tagged , , , , , on July 9, 2008 | 5 Comments »

For about three days I could breathe, I could smile. I househunted with the view of actually choosing a house. We had been worried about affording the move in costs (up to £2500 with one estate agent) associated with another rental. But we have to move, there is no choice so I had to suck [...]

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fear of love, fear of loss

Posted in Uncategorized, tagged , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , on May 13, 2008 | Leave a Comment »

My son fell into the pond on Sunday. My little baby lamb. I was watching him, and he was only in the water for a matter of a few seconds before I pulled him out.  He coughed and spluttered for a few seconds, and he was covered in pond scum, but he was fine.  I [...]

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She’s average.

Posted in Uncategorized, tagged , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , on April 2, 2008 | 2 Comments »

There is a certain feeling of dread that fills me when I have to meet with a teacher. They will produce unfinished projects, half empty notebooks. They will tell me my child lacks social skills, they will insist on meetings and assessments, they will assure me how very far behind he is. I will feel, [...]

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Posted in Uncategorized, tagged , , , , , , , , on March 20, 2008 | 2 Comments »

I was thinking, in the shower, while I washed my hair and then shaved my armpits. Replaying recent events and conversations, trying to think of solutions to problems. And then it hit me. It’s not the first time it’s ever happened, but from this angle was new.
“What if I can’t do this? What if I [...]

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